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University Cyber Games

neurobacter — Sun, 19 Feb 2012 13:45:00 +0000

University Cyber Games, hosted by UiTM, is the most recent esports event i joined. The game i played here is dota1. Together with me are my teammates shr3dder, thickface, nas, and hamidun. Team name is “what is this i dont even..” w|tide.neuro. is the name i used in the games. weird team name. troll name. won 3 out of 4 games during group stage on the first day. and made our way to finally settled at 4th place out of 20 teams. not a bad result for us. considering that we are just utp students who play games for fun as leisure activity. the top 3 are mainly pro gamers, who play dota very frequently. at least we can take pride in that we are the best in utp. :)

Dota is probably the most successful team play game ever created. Its like any other sports out there. 5 on 5. battling it out with all our wits and skills, as well as our teamwork and drafting skills. very tough learning curve. really depends on how much you understand ur teammates. how much the team members play together. i dont think i’ll be playing anymore dota 1. lost interest in it long ago. in fact i have not played for monthss before joining this tournament. just trained back a little this week for the tournament sake. i’m looking forward to dota 2 more. good graphics interest me more than anything else. as you can see from the pictures below. still. i’ll be focusing on starcraft 2 for now.

Valentines post 2

neurobacter — Wed, 15 Feb 2012 01:40:09 +0000

I feel that half of the world is sunk in happiness with intense love and romance with each other’s true love. while the other half of the world is spending the day depressingly… with solitude, intense boredom and envious of couples walking around.. posting photos.. lamenting the loss of love, the state of being foreveralone…

and there is a small portion of the world debating if it is the right thing to celebrate valentines day, or to even have this day. Religious groups likes to look back at the history of the day and complain that youngster these days just blindly follow western culture. Well, in my opinion, it’s not a western culture anymore. V day evolved from its original purpose to today’s form and continue to exist is due to a very simple reason. there is a need in this society to celebrate such a day. We will be reminded how lucky we are to have someone beside us on this day. and be reminded that how much we loved and be loved. it is a day where romance begins, continues, and eternalizes.

it is a beautiful day for every couple in the world.

also a torturous one for someone like me who lost his love.

Reason to celebrate Valentines this year

neurobacter — Sun, 12 Feb 2012 17:52:30 +0000

Today is February 12. 2 more days away from Valentines Day. And this year I have a special reason to celebrate Valentines Day. It will be the day I am freed from the past memories. Haven’t seen Charlene, my ex-girlfriend, for more than 2 years. Just had a chat with her few days ago over the phone about her life and future plans. I find that, she’s not affecting my mind anymore… only at a minuscule level now. Instead of being sad hearing happy moments of him and her together, I felt like I have made the right choice of letting her go, and I am truly happy for her. God knows what will she be like if she’s still together with me now. It is better for her to be with him really. and am glad that they are truly being happy as a couple. and i know… deep in my heart. she’s not the right girl for me. Although, we inexplicably love each other so much.

Had an awesome weekend this week. Hanging out at piano room for 4 consecutive days with my baby grand… and my dear friends… nicole, ven, vani, aaron… The weather has been hot, and that makes chilling out at undercroft even better… the aircon is very conducive for doing work and studying.. went to church today with ven too. it has been a long while since i attended the church of hope in ipoh. They moved to a new location and improved alot… I think i will continue attending the worship session weekly…

Comparing to feeling extremely sad few months ago. I’m feeling relaxed and happy now. and that is something worth celebrated.

It will be the reason for me to celebrate in this year’s valentines day.

back in utp

neurobacter — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 22:27:55 +0000

Finally i’m back in utp. Time just fly back so quickly. 4 months break. I always thought I would have achieved alot in 4 months. But when i’m back here, i felt like i’ve just taken my final exam last semester a week ago…

currently staying at V4 due to insufficient rooms and poor management… luckily there is a space left.. thx to my friends here…

and my first class starting in an hour time…

Having sleepless night on the first day back to university is kinda weird. Is it due to the fact that, i’m not used to sleeping on this bed. or that i’ve recieved your sms that you are going to marry him… or that you still think of me? This few months of time i spent with family made me realized how bad it is if you were still with me. Their attitude is just horrible for me to even have a girlfriend. not conducive at all… but thinking that i still have not seen you.. after so long.. even though i’m staying so near to you…

i’m still living on the determination not to look for you.. knowing that once I’ve seen you, everything will be ruined. I shall leave you with your own dreams, own destiny. shall not give u more pain and trouble. truly wish for your happiness. but being a nice guy. a generous guy. a guy who love a girl with all his heart until he willing to sacrifice his selfishness and let the girl find her own happiness with another guy. Most will call him STUPID. DUMB.. seriously, good guys don’t survive in this world. but at least, it warms my heart knowing that there is a fraction of me still there in you.

right now, i can only promise myself, and you in my dreams, that i will go through all these hurdles in my life. find a good job soon. and be a person that you could fall in love with. there is still this little wish in me that one day, maybe i will see u again. and when that day comes, i hope, that i will deserve at least a hug from you.

Family

neurobacter — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 08:18:26 +0000

I have a weird family.
I know them perfectly. Knows what’s in their minds. But not the other way round. I have my dreams. Pursuing them is nearly impossible with them around. Even though when i’m away from home, I felt like the strings are still there, tying me back to them. Everything i do, is somehow controlled and monitored, checked. This four months semester break, I have decided to spend more time with them, going church with dad, going to market with mummy, doing housework and sacrificing some of my plans for holiday. Yet i feel like there is no appreciation there. Yes I know they are getting old. I should be patience with them. But I am indeed very patience. and there is a limit to my patience. Little did they know that, because of them, I already given up my 3 years relationship with my most beloved girlfriend. And dare not to be close to any other girl. Because of them. My ex girlfriend is the only person who understand my family and, despises them greatly. She knows how i suffer in this family extremely well. and I know it’s for her own good not to drag her into my life.

Maybe it’s all because of what i do. Consequences from my own actions. But there is also consequences from their actions too. The more i stay in this family, the more i feel that there is no sense of belonging of me here. I don’t belong to this group of people at all, if it’s not because of the blood. Character, and ideals in life, totally different. I’m exposed to a different kind of life. Having a good family is the greatest blessing of all. It’s the hardest to hope for. Since it’s all preplan; we can’t choose our family at all. Just have to learn to deal with them, for the entire life. They are just there affecting me…

I don’t know what else I can do to live on with them. Tried to satisfy their wishes. to no avail.
I can’t speak to my brother either. He’s too distance from me. Attitude and thinking.
Sometimes I just wish i’m like them, so that i can blend in and laugh together at the dinner table.

But no. I prefer to finish the meal quickly and head back into my room.
And yes. back at home. Facing computer in the room is my own world. There is no reason for me to go out from this only comfort zone i have in this home.

When will everything change?

Holiday ending

neurobacter — Mon, 16 Jan 2012 18:23:22 +0000

A week has past since my last day working at arata… Slowly recovering from inhaling too much dirt and dust at construction site. My lungs have never been good to me since i was born. Still having some green phlegms… I like to call it as the corpse of foreign bacteria and viruses after huge battle in my body. New semester is beginning by next week. Looking forward to meeting back my university friends after 4 months of break. Miss my dear baby grand too… This few days I’ve been busy cleaning up my room and clearing stuff. Reorganizing all the rubish that i have…

Recently damn no mood to do anything though. was supposed to write cv, apply and preparing for internship, strive towards my goal of working in a multinational company. Everything still reminds me of her. I seriously need to know how to get over a hot and beautiful girlfriend like her. i felt like i’m going to miss her forever.. oh no…

New year. set some goals. but i’m lacking motivation. lacking enthusiasm. i’m nothing like a fresh young man. rather. i’m like one who had gone through alot of things. wanting only to see the world ends…

NeuroRush TVZ

neurobacter — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 16:14:38 +0000

Just wanna share with everyone a strat I invented myself to fight against zerg who always love to early expand and pump zerglings bannelings mutalisk to overwhelm the terran race. The key concept of this strat is fool the zerg players into thinking wrongly of what units I am getting. Psychological game. Hit them unprepared. This strategy is especially good for smaller maps.

I’m going to demonstrate my idea with a game I had on ladder games, on the map Shattered Temple. Firstly, i will try to delay the zerg from expanding, or forcing him to expand somewhere else that is harder to be defended, by building up an early engineering bay at his natural expansion. Usually i send out scv about 9/11 food to reach the natural in optimum time. Just remember not to finish the engineering bay and cancel it when the zerglings are almost done killing it to delay expansion as long as possible.

We know that terran players nowadays love to go for reactor barracks factory swap for fast hellions and early map control. Using the same concept. I’ll display the structures at front door as usual for zerg to see it… prompting him to think that i’m going for the usual build. Of course, get out some hellions as well to repel any zerglings away and take map control at xel naga tower. Just don’t over commit into hellions and spend more minerals on marines later on.

What is unusual behind this usual front strategy is this… DOUBLE starport with tech lab and of course.. remember to grab that dual gas early. Get few additional barracks after that and continue pumping marines with extra minerals… Priority given to producing banshees two at a time and researching the cloak ability. and remember to add supply depots one at a time… and… control your hellions to do active scouting and map control…

Next… Push out when you have 4 banshees with cloak. This will throw the zerg off guard… and go crazy with anti air… remember to keep pumping marines during all that banshee harassment. target key structures like banneling nest, spawning pool, and mutalisk den, killing as many drones as possible, prioritize killing queens before anything…. and reduce enemy’s ground army and defense as much as possible..

If lucky, the game will be ended by then. But usually, it requires one final push with all ur marines and hellions. bring along some scv to repair ur already damaged banshees. oh and remember to build two mediavacs admist the banshees when you are about to push out. Then together, marines scv mediavacs banshee hellions all in! GG. :)

Remember to snipe any bannelings with banshees with far range and high ground vision… This strat is usually successfully when the zerg player spend most of his resources on defending the banshee attack by having queens and spores… Instead, the final unit that is going to be massed and kill the zerg is mass MARINES. which is good against mutalisk, hydralisk… all that anti air units…

That’s all for neurorush~ :)

you are the most precious.

neurobacter — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 08:00:10 +0000

Why did we break up? Perhaps you still remember why but right now… I only remember the reasons for us to be together before everything else happens.

2012

neurobacter — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 02:29:15 +0000

Byebye2011.
Last night. I stayed at home. didn’t bother to see fireworks and countdown. went to bed around 10pm. too tired from work.
And.
What a great start to 2012 by sleeping through the new year. :)

Wish everyone all the best~

2012 might be the final year of human civilization on earth… so appreciate everyday we live on this beautiful planet~~

DURIANS

neurobacter — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 09:17:33 +0000

Today at construction site there is a kenduri during lunch for site warming, inviting everyone involved with this project.. I was already hungry before the lamb is cooked, and before the meal is served.. then i saw this…

this is alot of durians… i’ve told myself not to eat.. even if i do.. at most one small biji.. but i end up eating so many… argh.. can’t stop after u start biting one… in the evening… now.. i feel so uncomfortable.. hopefully i’ll be fine by tmr… burp… eww durian smell everywhere…

I didnt take any pic today but here is my colleagues posing with the delicious kambing golek… :)