Finally i’m back in utp. Time just fly back so quickly. 4 months break. I always thought I would have achieved alot in 4 months. But when i’m back here, i felt like i’ve just taken my final exam last semester a week ago…
currently staying at V4 due to insufficient rooms and poor management… luckily there is a space left.. thx to my friends here…
and my first class starting in an hour time…
Having sleepless night on the first day back to university is kinda weird. Is it due to the fact that, i’m not used to sleeping on this bed. or that i’ve recieved your sms that you are going to marry him… or that you still think of me? This few months of time i spent with family made me realized how bad it is if you were still with me. Their attitude is just horrible for me to even have a girlfriend. not conducive at all… but thinking that i still have not seen you.. after so long.. even though i’m staying so near to you…
i’m still living on the determination not to look for you.. knowing that once I’ve seen you, everything will be ruined. I shall leave you with your own dreams, own destiny. shall not give u more pain and trouble. truly wish for your happiness. but being a nice guy. a generous guy. a guy who love a girl with all his heart until he willing to sacrifice his selfishness and let the girl find her own happiness with another guy. Most will call him STUPID. DUMB.. seriously, good guys don’t survive in this world. but at least, it warms my heart knowing that there is a fraction of me still there in you.
right now, i can only promise myself, and you in my dreams, that i will go through all these hurdles in my life. find a good job soon. and be a person that you could fall in love with. there is still this little wish in me that one day, maybe i will see u again. and when that day comes, i hope, that i will deserve at least a hug from you.
